Conversation

Exchange of IM between two ex lovers:

L1: Buzz. Hndi mo na ako pinapansin. How are you?
L2: Sorry, busy with work and all. Still not coping. You?
L1: Was sick for the last three days.
L2: I bet you didn't go to the doc as usual. How are you feeling now.
L1: Yup. Nothing's changed here. Not even what I feel for you. Love you still.
L2: I love you too.

To be continued...

Commonly Confused Words Test

Saw this from Subtle Bliss' website. Try it. It's fun. How nerdy. Hahahaha

http://www.helloquizzy.com/tests/the-commonly-confused-words-test

Your result for The Commonly Confused Words Test...

English Genius

You scored 100% Beginner, 100% Intermediate, 87% Advanced, and 100% Expert!

You did so extremely well, even I can't find a word to describe your excellence! You have the uncommon intelligence necessary to understand things that most people don't. You have an extensive vocabulary, and you're not afraid to use it properly! Way to go!

Thank you so much for taking my test.

Must lists and Fragile Things

Fragile Things. Got a copy. Read the blurb. Me likey. Excited to start reading it. *Drool drool* Too busy to start though, big project and powers that be arriving. Stress already starting to creep in. I hate it when work gets in the way of entertainment.

Still depressed. Not much has changed. Tired of the single life already, too costly. Shopping too much these days. Bought lots of things, from mirrors to pants to shades to books to ballpens to notebooks to shirts to polos to undies to socks. Need to buy more though, must stop compulsion.

Esther comes knocking. Lonely Law is in the brink of opening the door. Must stop myself from opening the door, must buy new locks.

Thinking of transferring to this new site. Cooler layout, better themes. Must find time to evaluate.

Must work now, too much to do. Must stop petiks mode.

Life After Death

Heard while buying more Neil Gaiman books at Fully Booked.

Fully Booked Attendant One: Sana hindi totoo yun noh? Yung life after death. Tapos sa pagdating ng panahon, bubuhayin lahat ng patay. Paano na katawang tao nila, agnas na yun. Zombies pare.

Fully Booked Attendant Two: Pare hindi na bubuhayin ang katawang tao ng lahat ng nilalang. Basta sa huli daw kahit asawa mo, hindi mo na kilala. Hindi na kayo magkakakilala.

Fully Booked Attendant One: Magkita kayo tayo non? Kinikilabutan ako pare.

Creepy.

PS.

I can't find a copy of American Gods. Paging Ms Fi. =).

Incomplete

One day I'll find relief
I'll be arrived
And I'll be a friend to my friends who know how to be friends
One day I'll be at peace
I'll be enlightened and I'll be married with children and maybe adopt
One day I will be healed I will gather my wounds forge the end of tragic comedy

One day my mind will retreat
And I'll know God And I'll be constantly one with her night dusk and day
One day I'll be secure
Like the women I see on their thirtieth anniversaries

I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time of being forever incomplete

Step No Step Yes

Should I stay or should I go...

Pinahihirapan ko lang ba ang sarili ko o desisyon ito para sa ikakasiya ng hinaharap ko.

I have got to shake it off...

Malungkot ang buhay na binubuo ng pansamantalang ligaya.

And I vow and I vow to be true...

Sana tama ang ginagawa ko. Tatawanan ko lang ito sa hinaharap. Matatawa ako.

Immunity

Like a patient getting his doses of antibodies I will subject myself to all the things that we used to do together. I will expose myself to all the places where we shared a lot of happy times in. I will spend time doing the things we did together, but now not as part of a “we” but “I” as “I”.

If you see me “emoting”, in the next few days, I ask that you please just ignore me. I most probably am having my moment, reminiscing… flushing out the toxins… developing immunity...

PS.

If you see me convulsing, crying or just breaking down please be a friend, approach me and say, "Aaay, artesta ang potah.". That should bring me back to my senses.

Neil Gaiman Therapy

These are the times of raw despondence as Alanis would say, and to beat the funk I suggest you follow my therapy. I am now in the midst of a Neil Gaiman Therapy. I plan on reading all his books to fill my time. I have already read Stardust and Anansi Boys (thanks Ms Fi). I am now reading Smokes and Mirrors and will buy over the weekend his other works. The guy's writing is akin to a summer blockbuster. It will not push you to think about existentialism nor will push you to question your religion but he will keep you entertained. He writes about events and action, imagine magical realities and absurd sequences. Think Haruki Murakami but in English and more surreal. I once read a description saying he is literature's rock star and I couldn't agree more.

PS.

My observation of him may change as I read more of his work but for now, I am still enjoying reading him and will remain steadfast in following my self prescribed therapy.

Moratorium

I just bought that new CD from Alanis M. I bought it bearing in mind that the CD was made after she broke up with Ryan Reynolds. I know that I will find lots of songs to relate in this CD. I am a very musical person and I am the kind that needs "themesongs". Very Ally, I know, very 90's. Anyhow, I am not going to write a review here, I am too biased. I like her too much. I would just like to share this phrase from the song Moratorium. It echoes my sentiments at the moment.

I declare a moratorium on things relationship
I declare a respite from the toils of liaison
I do need a breather from the flavors of entanglement
I declare a full time out from all things commitment

Kung gusto nyo copy, burn-an ko kayo. Ehehehe. I am a pirate! =)

RIP

It was our mutual like for Sarah Michelle Gellar that brought us together. The movie was the “Return”, we bonded over the complete suckiness of the movie but still regarded Buffy with awe and butt-kicking wonder. We had dinner, called each other regularly; we met every single day after work.

It was December. We watched the Filmfest and hated every film that we saw but loved every single minute that we we’re together. Every waking hour was spent together, each night in our dreams we still see each other. Passion was feverishly high whenever we touch, Eurotel sure did earn a lot. =)

Fast forward one and half year of countless “galit-bati” moments later… And now we bury the moments that were and forget all the ifs that are to be. With a heavy heart and crippling sadness, we decided to end our journey together. Priorities have changed, views have been altered, and now at this crossroads we need to take our separate route, hoping that along the road ahead we will cross paths again and maybe will be ready to hop on the same coach together. More mature, more complete…

I enjoyed this roller coaster ride with you Dy. I am now ready to let go. Bye. I will see you later. =)